Off to something new…REALLY?

Now that's really a question I have in ma freaking mind' cos I really
don't understand all the hype around something called the new year.
How are things really gonna be different? How does it really matter if
it's 2K8 or 2K9? Is it all around, about celebrating something or the
other, just another reason to party? I have seen everyone making plans
well in advance., yay it's new year coming, what is the plan, come
let's party. It freaks me out.

How different is a new year gonna be? For me, as far as I consider
it's gonna be just another day with all the usual stuff, I consider
all this hype created around new year as a marketing funda by some
marketing genius.

Well we all have fell for it' so a very happy new year! :) let's
welcome 2K9!

Oh expect some changes in the blog soon :) now it's time to get some
sleep! Zzzzzzz

fOsSil…the heart has it's reasons that reason cannot know!!!

Wokay here I hit one month of joblessness :P

And it has been a real weirdo period of time. The at most priority thing on the list has been killing time. And I have to admit I failed in that aspect real bad :) . My days have been all the same for the past one month, a bit of change in between if at all, otherwise it’s been all the same. The same boring life for a month, damn I need a change :P . Change in what way I don’t know actually, I have been killing time some way or the other, watching movies (it consumed a hell lot of my time, cant even recollect the amount of movies I saw. Most of which actually I have seen many times), the new found love for Twitter (a.k.a Micro Blogging, guess just now I got time to explore it), trying to sleep (yes am still not able to sleep properly, and the amount of mosquitoes are really not helpful), smoking (yes indeed I have been smoking like crazy, I have nothing else to do, all day long its a pleasing friend. It has some how become a part of me, for a person like me, yeah I would call smokes ma friend), guess that’s it I did all day, eating as usual was not happening, and now limited to dinner :p, oh yeah towards the end I filled ma iPhone with applications (kinda), how can I miss Facebook games ;) , then the Mumbai blasts kept me busy looking for info, basically did a lot of stuff online, kind off EXPLORING THE WEB!

So what actually changed during this course of time? Well I don’t know if I know, am confused as ever. But somethings have changed in and around me. Don’t know if I can bring them up, cos I don’t know how to explain. But basically I feel am becoming more self centered, more possessive, more worried, and that kinda shit. I don’t know actually whats happening, I have kinda lost touch with the outside world. More people getting mad at me, I know somewhere people are getting me wrong completely, hope I could change that, hope is all I have, and none of faith cos faith is something that’s non existing :p. Basically everything around me seems blurred, everything there but nothing clear, the very confused stage. I think I have forgot how to smile, and that’s what the worst part that has happened to me :| Actually nah I can’t explain what has been happening to me, the weirdness at it’s best :p. I am liking to be alone more, cos am falling in love with the darkness, which has just me around, and am loving it, loving that feeling. The feeling which has evolved to such a level now that I don’t pick up ma phone and bug anyone, I don’t even care to reply to msgs. World is getting better I guess. At least better from the good riddance of me :) )).

Woho now I gotta share one huge list, the huge list of movies I saw. Some of them real sad. Damn the sad part is the movie collection is almost over :| so I guess now I really gotta find a job :p

40 Year Old Virgin
A Love Song for Bobby
A Scanner Darkly
Analyze That
Analyze This
Be Cool
Before Sunise
Before Sunset
Beverly Hills Cops (1,2,3)
Bill
Black Cat
Blue Crush
Capote
Catch Me If You Can
Cinderella Man
C Kkompany
Cocktail
Corpse Bride
Definitely, Maybe
Dodgeball
Donnie Brasco
Dostana
Dumb and Dumber
Equilibrium
Fear & Loathing in Las Vegas
Final Solution
First Sunday
Fracture
Gone in 60 Seconds
Good Will Hunting
Hancock
Harold and Kumar
Get Shorty
Knight Rider
Kung Fu Panda
Lady chaterly
Lethal Weapon-The Complete Collection
Little Children
Little Miss Sunshine
Lock Stock and Two Smoking Barrels
Lucky Number Slevin
Man of the year
Match Point
Madambi
Miami Vice
MinnaminniKoottam
Munich
Mystic River
Of Love and Shadows
Persepolis
Philadelphia
Pulp Fiction
Quantum of Solace
Reservoir Dogs
Rounders
School For Scoundrels
Seabiscuit
Serendipity
Shawshank Redemption
Sicko
Singh Is Kinng
Snatch
Starsky & Hutch
Stranger Than Fiction
Street Kings
Superbad
Superman Doomsday
Taken
The Bank Job
The Darjeeling Limited
The Fast and the Furious-Tokyo Drift
The Hoax
The Hole
The Jason Bourne Movie Collection
The Usual Suspects
Thomas Crown Affair
Thursday
Transporter Collection
Twenty 20
V For Vendetta
Zodiac
Across The Universe
City Of Angels
Fast Times At Ridgemont High
Forrest Gump
Goldeneye
Good Fellas
National Treasure Book Of Secrets
The Departed
Water
We Own The Night

Now the list does not end, I just can’t remember names right now, everything is so so so blurred, blah if I linked all the above mentioned movies to IMDB, then one can imagine how jobless I am :p. Seriously I didn’t feel bored :0) well time for another smoke, guess post that I will hit the publish button :P

Something came intoma mind! I no longer can remember what I wante to add! phew anyways!


¡ʍouʞ ʇouuɐɔ uosɐǝɹ ʇɐɥʇ suosɐǝɹ sʇı sɐɥ ʇɹɐǝɥ ǝɥʇ˙˙˙ןıssoɟ

I mostly tracked all the news regarding the Mumbai blasts online via Twitter (i am @fossiloflife there) and CNNIBN live streaming. Via Twitter I realised how much we all hated the media for there bad coverage of the Mumbai attacks. It was all a desperate attempt to ge viewership of the soap hungry Indian public. The people who went through all the turmoil, where expecting peace, the media was ready to cross question them on every account and turn, with questions like… Did you see the terrorists? How many terrorists are there? Are your loved ones still stuck there? How did you manage to escape? so on and so forth.. Was it required? I don’t think it made even a bit of sense for the media to keep harassing the victims. Across twitter updates there where three echoes which where common to all of us…

1) What was happening in Mumbai was bad.
2) What media was doing was more pathetic.
3) What on earth were the politicians doing on the scene?

This was one event which actully brought the Social Media in India to Age.Though the actual term of being a Citizen Jurno was missing. There where very few who were reporting from and around the scene, @vinu, being one of them, who shot to fame cos of his bringing to life pictures and Twitter updates. Rest were all picking up media reports. There where Tweets regarding every single article and blog post found at that moment cos everyone wanted a real account of what actually was happening. There were emergency numbers flashing all across Twitter, so were msgs to help. Oh that reminds me, WHY ON EARTH WAS MEDIA AT ALL WORRIED ABOUT CRICKET? AND ALSO HOW DID IT MATTER AT ALL WHEN INDIA WAS UNDER ATTACK, IT WAS NOT MUMBAI, IT WAS INDIAN INTEGRITY WHICH WAS ATTACKED!

Now as of now the death toll has reached 195+ and injured being 300+, and who knows what the final numbers will be?

What actually stands apart in these attacks are the complete failure of the intelligence establishment, brilliant planning and implementation by the terrorists (am not praising the terrorists, but the truth is they have fooled everyone of us from every angle, we didn’t even know how many of them are there YET). Mumbai lost few of its most brilliant officers, India’s most most elite force also lost it’s officer, but in all that they managed to save 100’s of lives.

So who where the actual hero’s? the NSG? the ARMY? the POLICE? the PUBLIC? otr the HOTEL STAFFS?
Who ever says anything for me the actual two hero’s are the HOTEL STAFF and the PUBLIC! The hotel staff cos they didn’t cross the line of panic and leave the guest in middle of the terror attack, they guided each on to safety, if alone they had not done what they did, we would be still counting bodies. The public cos they kept there cool. A real hats off to these section of people. Then who can forget the NSG? hats off to them too… and coming to why i rate the hotel staff above all is, they did what they could the best way they could facing the fire power with BRAINS :P

The Indian spirit arises here cos of the sentiment it echoed through each and single one of us, for making us think on a better tomorrow, for making us love each other more.

To all politicians, just a request, don’t start the usual blame game, work together, find a solution, that’s why you guys are elected.And to the media, stop selling real life sentiments, put some ethics into your work.

AND SALUTE TO MUMBAI FOR LOOKING TALL!


¡ʍouʞ ʇouuɐɔ uosɐǝɹ ʇɐɥʇ suosɐǝɹ sʇı sɐɥ ʇɹɐǝɥ ǝɥʇ˙˙˙ןıssoɟ

One of the worst nights I ever had, the terror attack just gave me some kinda shock. First I thought it was just shoot out and was like WTF, wow lets see whats happening. But then it all just turned out to be one of the most nasty operations by terrorist, just by the way it was planned. Freak now as I plan to write, news is coming in that police have found 8kg of RDX, what did the terrorist plan? BLOW UP THE TAJ MAHAL HOTEL? Man how can such a big security lapse happen? How can such a huge amount of ammunition enter city unnoticed? WTF? One of the most secure places in the financial capital just taken over by the terrorist, which part is really safe? HOW SAFE? Damn me I hate those SOBs, they have no real right to do anything such insane. Today’s Mumbai is seeing almost the same impact that Bombay faced 15 years ago. And its real sad. Its sad that not only top police officials but the normal people have been attacked without any mercy. What on earth actually happened? 101 killed? many more injured.

What a well planned attack, they used govt., n police jeeps to attack the people? This I don’t is a terror attack or a child’s play…the so called terrorists are 20 to 25 year old. WHY do these kids wanna do all this? where do they get the heart to do all this? They look like average Indian kids, only difference being that the kids where heavily armed. Whole night I had been micro blogging using twitter @fossiloflife, live by the twitter world can be found at #mumbai. I SALUTE THE WHOLE OF MUMBAI FOR KEEP ON STANDING AFTER EACH FALL! TRUE MUMBAI SPIRIT! I don’t know what else to say. to media please stop harassing victims, and may all this end soon! Still its not known if its a terrorist attack or the hostage attempt? At least no one saying!

After 7/11 and 7/26, now there’s a 11/26 to affect #Mumbai. Curious coincidence?

And please politicians don’t start a blame game’ forget party’s join hands do something.


¡ʍouʞ ʇouuɐɔ uosɐǝɹ ʇɐɥʇ suosɐǝɹ sʇı sɐɥ ʇɹɐǝɥ ǝɥʇ˙˙˙ןıssoɟ

(The River Cooum originates in a village of the same name, about 70 km away from Chennai. Once a fresh water source is today a drainage course inside Chennai, collecting surpluses of 75 small tanks of a minor basin. The length of the river is about 65 km, of which 18 km fall within the Chennai city limits. Once a fishing river and boat racing ground, it has borne the brunt of the city’s unplanned explosion. The Kesavaram dam diverts the river into the Chembarambakkam Lake from which water is utilized for the supply of drinking water to the city of Chennai. Thereafter, the flow of water in the river is much reduced.)

The Cooum is mostly associated with its stench. No one who has ever visited Chennai could have missed the Cooum River. Polluted by industrial effluents and drainage from the hundreds of hutments along its banks, its strong odour pervades the city making its presence undeniable. It’s now actually become a part of Chennai life…Chennai without Cooum nah…

Cooum River was the pride of Madras with its clean watercourse, once upon a time According to Wikipedia “The name of Cooum appears to be derived from Tamil Literature. The word “coovalan” denotes a person who is well versed in the science of hydrology. ” It is likely, that the River Cooum might have derived its name from such a usage. According to one estimate 158 sewage canals are let into the Cooum. According to a report , Central Environmental Ministry under the National River Water Protection Scheme had sanctioned Rs 325.25 crore to Tamilnadu Government for cleaning them (where has the money gone?) Though a tidy sum appear to be allotted for cleaning the rivers at Chennai, there does not seem to be any visible activity towards beautifying the Cooum. Will Cooum becomes Chennai pride again? It’s gonna be a long process of wait and watch!

It’s known to be the city’s smelly eyesore, so it should hardly come as a surprise that the Cooum river is a killer water body with high toxic content. It is even estimated that, when flowing within city limits, has more toxins than even a sewer. A 72-km-long channel, the Cooum originates in the neighbouring Tiruvallur district and winds its way through Chennai before flowing into the Bay of Bengal. Tests undertaken to gauge the extent of pollution downstream showed fish could survive for only three to five hours in water near the mouth of the river in Chepauk even after the samples were diluted up to 50% (without aeration). The water has almost no dissolved oxygen, and instead there are traces of heavy metals like copper, besides sewage and sludge.

So why am I saying all this?
Well to the very simple fact that, ma old office was on the banks of Cooum. We loved the view of Cooum, cos it was a vast open space, with fresh air (now I cant really cocmment on how fresh), jusst thinking of it as fresh water way used to give us kicks. We had lot of arguments on the WHY ON EARTH WAS THE GOVT. ACTING IMMUNE TO THE COOUM? The stinking river of today once used to be a fresh water way, with boats on it? Where and when did the change happen? Aren’t there laws which prohibit the pollution of water bodies? Who actually looks into all this? I don’t know how long am gonna be in Chennai, but still I wish to see the Cooum river clean, the black mark in the heart of the city to go.


fOsSiL…the heart has its reasons that reason cannot know!!!

Where ever I turn, It’s just me…
Me looking at maself…
There is just lot of chaotic system out there…
I may not be alone, I don’t see anything else…
Like those vast open oceans, or the dark sky…

It’s the cool breeze surrounding me…
Making me numb, numb towards the world…
Towards everyone out there…
Towards every feeling out there…
Above all numb towards maself
Here I shout…
Hoping the breeze would carry ma waves…
Hoping the ocean would churn out a pearl of tears..
Hoping the dark sky would shed some light…

Hoping nothing changes…
Hoping, I don’t loose the hope
Hoping to hope away into ma very own world…

Every door seems to be shut hard…
Every knocks gone waste…
Every knock giving way for new hope…
The sight of the golden key…
Hidden some where deep inside…

Hidden deep inside me…
Hope I could get a peep..
Hope I could get a better look at maself…
Hope I could get a better look at everyone around me…

Hope is not worth the hope or is it?
The four walls have so much in it…
When does puppy get to see?
Four walls full of meanings…
Four walls full of @#$%…
Four walls of insanity..
Four walls of me n me alone…

¡ʍouʞ ʇouuɐɔ uosɐǝɹ ʇɐɥʇ suosɐǝɹ sʇı sɐɥ ʇɹɐǝɥ ǝɥʇ˙˙˙ןıssoɟ

woho here i did ma first call to 1098, the child help line which was opened with lot of fan fare. I don’t know much to comment about its track record. What really made me make this call was a kid cursing the staff out @a hotel in Nungambakkam, Chennai. The kid with a shaven head, had what it looked like tears rolling down his cheeks, and he was murmuring, what i don’t know, but he was not happy, that much I can say. I thought of calling then and there, was not sure of the number and didn’t wanna attract attention. Now also am not sure to what extend the complaint works out, nor i know the complications involved. Am also, while typing this down chatting with one of ma friend who works for AidIndia (an NGO), anyways lets see what happens, if @all anything happens. The call center girl didn’t sound a bit at all worried, just said we will inform the concerned people, I hope she does, they are supposed to act fast! It seems I cold call and check back now that’s what I should be doing! In fact I have seen kids work at lot of hotels, it never clicked me it was just a call away DAMN! hoping for the best! I guess I would have to go back to the hotel and check again! Just the first step took time now i know what to do! :p lemme see if it would be of any use of
checking back tonight!

I had thought that child labour was actively checked, didn’t know it was so an open thing! I still don’t understand how these kids end up working there, I guess I gotta shed ma corporate life to know it properly, I always wanted to! Hopefully someday! I still am not sure of what I must be doing in life!

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UPDATE – Time 11.05 p.m IST

I went to the same place for dinner, just to see if any change would be visible. I had to drag ma friend to that place, cos he was not keen of having veg food., and also he was advocating the logic of “the kid might be the bread earner for the family, you are just hurting a whole family”, but I told him am not gonna listen to his arguments. anyways we ordered food., firstly I just saw an kid, who is was not too was a kid, anyways I had all ma eyes focused towards the kitchen, one by one I saw the faces I could recollect, but still not sure if they where under aged, I ordered more food just so that my eyes could keep looking, and it didn’t go waste actually, I saw the face I had been waiting for, the bald kid, whose eyes I had seen filled, whose eyes had motivated me to call. I spoke to ma friend again, she asked me if I called 1098, and checked up again, they are supposed to give me exact information, and she promised me if it’s not gonna be helpful, she would make the required calls. Anyways after getting out of that place I again place the call ….tring tring… I tell them that I had called up in the evening and placed a complaint…I see no action taken, they asked me to repeat and then I realized they were not able to keep track of what exactly I was saying…so here I had to repeat everything in my beautyfully crafted broken Tamil (:p) ..and what answer do I get for ma dismay (felt like a doomsday)

Agent – “sir we will take action”

Me – “yeah, but when? I had called up in the evening, and I see the kids out there still?’

Agent – “sir we will take action, we have to make a team up for action”

Me – ” yes, but when?”

Agent – “@least 2 weeks” (I don’t know if I heard it right)

Me – @least 2 weeks?? (wow I felt mad to have called them up)”

Agent – One week sir, we have to get the team ready, it will take time”

Me – “okay, thanks”

What do I to them? they are just call agents’ now I know nothing in India actually works fast, even if it is meant to be. I had to cut the call, cos it was hust not cool on there part’ I gotta inform ma friend about this, so that she can get the right channels to work.Hmmm..


¡ʍouʞ ʇouuɐɔ uosɐǝɹ ʇɐɥʇ suosɐǝɹ sʇı sɐɥ ʇɹɐǝɥ ǝɥʇ˙˙˙ןıssoɟ

Today first day, nah night, that i have decided to see only Black, yeah ma first night post the fact that I have quit ma job @GREY. Well am I worried about being jobless or am i happy? I donnu yet, I cant feel anything. I guess am getting a long required break so that i can gt ma fucked up brain right’ But things happening around me doesn’t seem to help me out on that!

Anyways here am sitting watching a movie, nah ma second for the night, time being 2.49am on dot, am not even tired to remotly what i ever used to feel. I feel am not bound by work any more, I feel am free of somethings, but not sure of what, it seems all vague all blurred, but feels good.

Well ma last day was also no different actually, everyone was busy and me jobless, trying to keep maself busy online. But I think the match kept me more busy, I had to keep running to the conference room, mn What a pleasure it was to see India build up the innings. And then I have the new found love for the Facebook games :P , I have started to spend a lot of time on it’ Its a great time killer…had booze plans for the evening, which got canceled just cos of the usual meetings @office level n client, the mood in office today was very boring and tensed,
we had our share of fun talking and looking @the tense faces :P no more details can be mentioned.

reached home post the max time I could spend officially @work, cos just the feeling of chumma sitting was killing, yeah am kinda workaholic but call maself that’ cos I can’t work 24X7 :P But like to be work’ Now getting to the fact of being not working is actually sad’ nothing to kill time, and the biggest word in current time, NO MONEY’ which actually makes me worried’ am not even sure if I have put enough thought to the post job time’ :P am happy happy being free… all i can think of now is to lazy around reading, hitting online, watching movies, what else could i be doing without actually shelling out money :P yes am in a damage control mode…

Am just trying see what options I have, without actually thinking’ I guess I should just see the movie first and then think of a topic I can tink about,

the first night of being jobless is not yet that bad’ so adios before I actually find something bad to say’ this doesn’t sound like a writing, just a confusing talk i had with maself.. bow bow the fact that I have reduced smoking like a mad man doesn’t leave me with many options :P well can I get paid for Facebooking or Orkutting or iPhoning :P common am talking about business models out here :P Am in the same circle of life thinking on what to think of.


¡ʍouʞ ʇouuɐɔ uosɐǝɹ ʇɐɥʇ suosɐǝɹ sʇı sɐɥ ʇɹɐǝɥ ǝɥʇ˙˙˙ןıssoɟ

Of the mistakes I make, of the paths I take, of the thoughts I have… is everything right? Or everythings as wrong, as right it seems to be? How I wish I knew all the routes’ not to reach anywhere in hurry, but just to be sure, I don’t repeat my very own mistakes. I would be glad
to travel alone cos at last it’s you who gotta travel, n no ones even gonna be there to turn back on you’. How I wish I could travel the paths less known, so no one would expect anything of me, nor could anyone find me’

When people find you, when people know you, there are lot of sentiments attached. One can never be sure which way to take post that, nor can one go that way always, just cos everyones gonna be watching you, judging you, expecting of you!!!

Off this world I don’t know what I like’ of this place I don’t know what I write, why I write. Am failing to find reasons, reasons for just about anything. Don’t know what to expect what not to, where to turn for help where not to, what to understand what not to. Don’t even know if am worth being around in the crowd, I just feel lost. No where to turn, no place too quite. No destination reaching beyond dreams.

Left alone in this wild crowd, trying to find some place, trying to talk, trying make someone listen, trying not feel lost. Still I see only mistakes around me, past n present, guess future too.. Afraid to cry, afraid of people around, I here live a coward life all alone trying to live as a joker cos am here’ just driven by mistakes’ seeing mistakes’ time to, don’t know what, may be make one more mistake’ adiós.

When one feels lonely, nothing really can help you? Or can it?

Deal with it! Or you will be lost forever!

fOsSil…the heart has it’s reasons that reason cannot know!!!

Elections are over!
Oops what elections? yeah the US presidential elections..
Well like every one am also talking about the great US elections…but really why? The media has to talk about what happens in US more than what happens really in India, so am I doing the same thin here! All are bitten by the same bug!

I have been seeing and reading reports from around the world of the wide scale celebrations…but really why? I also read reports about how bad the “Obama in office” gonna effect the IT industry, still every one is cheering for him. from Los Angeles to our own capital New Delhi. BUT WHY? Just because they turn out be running the world economy? Even when the whole world is effected by the financial crisis in US? All i see is actually the world doing HOPE GOOD approach.

What for? I don’t know.. don’t have a reason to explain..

The worlds so called most powerful country, one of the world’s most racist too, ..has an Black President, who got an landslide victory…

All said and done ..at the start of this race Obama was just an underdog. He was against hi profile Clinton’s and the McCain’s of the world, but what he has showed to the world is “change can happen”. The whole meaning of change we have to wait and see… but everyone is actually sensing the change…the slide to the good.

“YES WE CAN”
Obama the underdog has proved his KARMA MANTRA of yes we can by not just winning the elections in a huge margin and making it historic, but also by letting the great American divide over colour go down the drain. He has in one way really UNITED the United States of America. But where does the difference really lie? I saw both Obama’s and McCain’s speeches with lot of interest, (well I would not have spend time on watching any speech given any any so called politician in India (unless it becomes part of ma job)). The difference in attitude of a victory or a loss is huge, real huge. Here after an election all we hear are blame games, or the stupid victory galas. But the US elections stood out, not only by the result, by the amount of money spend, but by the emotion involved with out the blame game.

McCain said : “I pledge to him tonight to do all in my power to help him lead us through the many challenges we face“.

Who would have accepted defeat with such a pride? Would i ever see such moment in Indian politics or for that matter of fact in any other political Field? I saw McCain openly agree that he had differences with Obama, but now was the time to work together> Obama on the other hand didn’t criticise McCain either, now this is what makes the political showdown an gentleman’s game.

Oh in between that here we also got an first Black F1 champion also, not that am a great fan of his. But achievements are to mentioned.
This year has been the kinds of re writing history with racist power (no i don’t mean it), what am actually saying is that, those who where actually freaked by racist comments and life are now hitting back, not with force but proving themselves and winning hearts. All the best Mr. Barack Obama and Lewis Hamilton


¡ʍouʞ ʇouuɐɔ uosɐǝɹ ʇɐɥʇ suosɐǝɹ sʇı sɐɥ ʇɹɐǝɥ ǝɥʇ˙˙˙ןıssoɟ