The Four Walls

Where ever I turn, It’s just me…
Me looking at maself…
There is just lot of chaotic system out there…
I may not be alone, I don’t see anything else…
Like those vast open oceans, or the dark sky…

It’s the cool breeze surrounding me…
Making me numb, numb towards the world…
Towards everyone out there…
Towards every feeling out there…
Above all numb towards maself
Here I shout…
Hoping the breeze would carry ma waves…
Hoping the ocean would churn out a pearl of tears..
Hoping the dark sky would shed some light…

Hoping nothing changes…
Hoping, I don’t loose the hope
Hoping to hope away into ma very own world…

Every door seems to be shut hard…
Every knocks gone waste…
Every knock giving way for new hope…
The sight of the golden key…
Hidden some where deep inside…

Hidden deep inside me…
Hope I could get a peep..
Hope I could get a better look at maself…
Hope I could get a better look at everyone around me…

Hope is not worth the hope or is it?
The four walls have so much in it…
When does puppy get to see?
Four walls full of meanings…
Four walls full of @#$%…
Four walls of insanity..
Four walls of me n me alone…
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¡ʍouʞ ʇouuɐɔ uosɐǝɹ ʇɐɥʇ suosɐǝɹ sʇı sɐɥ ʇɹɐǝɥ ǝɥʇ˙˙˙ןıssoɟ

iNnEr CiRcLe!…

hmmm…
how attached can friends be?
for me its a very close circle…n almost like the fevicol bond
and this is a long due post regarding all of those in the iNnEr CiRcLe!…
in no order no complications no complaints

Achanji!…
yes! the one and only actually i would say has the right to be on top
he is THE family for me…rest don’t exist…i don’t know if i can call him a friend..he is way above that!

Darklord!…
that’s what he used to call himself, then he changed to capt. JACK…which we named rohit’s DOG’s name as …so as of now he dosn’t have a name
he is the bigB..both in character n SIZE man he dsn’t allow me to smoke also
a sweet big guy..lazy with lot of energy..he he…
he is a big bro to all…everyone is afraid of him…

Meani a.k.a little angel!…
angel is one of the newest part of ma life…a true lil angel sister…
don’t really know how she tolerates me…wastes all the energy she has shouting @me…trying to make me talk..or lets say @least respond
she has gone though a hell…i never know how to respond to her…

bOzZ!…
this guy das is a sweetheart of all…
have never seen him serious…he try’s hard to be at times…lazy bum of all!
but something is hidden in him..some kinda magnetic power which keeps him close to all…
he is almost like me when it some to keeping things to himself…a darkhole..
know him for donkey years …have not ever got tired of him…
oh how can i miss it! who ever meets him can’t miss hitting him…
he is our de-stresser

bUbBlE!…
first as the world knows….she is ma bhabhi!
a person who knows me inside out….whom i tell everything…in its every single detail…
life without her would have been so boring…
to all the heck of it …bcos of her i became a broker…at a time when i didn’t even know her…
but now i don’t regret…

mandan!…
this guy is the so called health and beauty conscious hunk or hulk
he is the only so called macho man…n for that one reason i like beating him hard!

a guy with a tag attached to his name..SINCE 1925 …

he asks me not let the smoke out of ma nose…i will die soon with cancer it seems..hmmm

aMaDa!…

okay this girl i know for about 2+ years…but it seems to be like ages n ages…

i had never expected her to enter the inner circle…but she has and am glad about that!
its almost like she is ma boZZzzz…i give her daily report sheet! oh yeah and also bitch!
i love irritating her…she hates me for that…
over a period of time i have given her lot of names starting from panther(pink panther fame) to aMaDa!
she is ma sweetheart who always wants to bash me up(ma luck that it has not happened yet )
am just too used to irritating her with all ma problems..she likes it or not she listens to it…she is special to me
she is like a mamma ..but i cant call her so…damm i have given her a promise..
so far i have done everything (except one) i told her i will…i have a lot of respect for you aMaDa

sarah!…
what do i say about her…
we became close in a very very short span…
but thanks to the circumstances and situations we rarely interact now..
all i gotta say is she is a real jewel …a real sweetheart!

ducky!..
She is another sweet sis of mine…
but she is angry with me for months…i know its ma mistake…but she refuses to take ma apologies..:(
she is one person who has actually guessed ma mood despite ma best try to hide the worst
she is a big pavam nanny…n now a family women! nah family girl!

mOmMiE!…
yes she is a real mommie…
when i started calling her mommie she actually reduced the amount she advices me…
but later i realized how much i missed those talks and fights….
there was a point when i would not even let her study…bcos i wanted talk..she would beg to keep the phone..but never cut the call!
she is a BigS jus like the BigB!…someone i would listen to blindly, but not without argument!
us wont be us, if we don’t argue right mOmIE?

bJ!…be blessed!
here is a gem of all in all kinds!
she is person who is so sweet…that you will actually forget what is happening around you!
i always don’t have anything to say about her…she is above all words…
distance has never come in between us…
we never have much to talk…kinda frequent chat and calls just to know everything is okay!

rohit!…
wokay this guy is ass of the first order! mad and crazy!
lazy beyond thought…
we have enjoyed lots …done lots stupid things…
what do i say…we have just njoy’d life!

smitha!…
between us all i can think is of are those fights we used to have…
we were so close at a point of time…that bills were beyond that could be controlled
over a period of time..distance came in between n all we are left is with memories..the sweet old memories!
memories which are beyond words…wish she was near me, so that i could still fight
i know i have made you cry and all…but nothing was intended …hmmm

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fOsSiL…the heart has its reasons that reason cannot know!!!