Yet again just a year to pass by. Am a year older’ am I? Am more mature’ am I? Am more confused’ yes I am!
I have lots a questions about maself that I don’t know or rather I never wanna realize’ WHY??? I donu! I have learned not to expect anything from anyone’ anything for that matter of fact! I tried changing, but that didn’t help me in anyway’ the only thing I have learned out of this freak life is don’t expect a thing in return! Nothing is mine forever’ the day I tried to change the way I was, for anyone out there, (for that matterof fact) in front of you, I was just killing maself’
Everyone used the name of God saying’ it’s the way God planned the life for you’ I SAID FUCK GOD, stop being a coward! I was not against the concept of God or anything for that matter, I just hated the way the word or concept of so called GOD was used by everyone as an excuse to run away from life! Everyone is happy to change but me nah I was so happy before the change, what change I have gone through has killed me not knowing to what extend! Blah blah’
Yes it’s a year more! Am a year older! Wait letme calculate! Oh am 24 now’ man I hate it! So much life left! No one will believe but actually I was thinking of death’ what is actually the use of living? For me life without rules make sense, I have been thinking about what change really will come up after ma death’ muhahaha I don’t the see any change around me post ma death, not that I will know! But I don’t sense or see any reason that ma death will actually make a difference :p ooops it’s a birth day and am talking about death day, now that makes me smile good! :p ho yeah I love to smile’ that’s why I guess am better known to be happily INSANE!!!
I hate it when I realize how bad I am’ when I realize that I actually don’t wanna change the way I am’ and more than all that when I refuse to respect maself! But nothing really can be done about it! ;p
Life is best explained to me as a lost journey’ a journey which ones afraid to travel’ a journey, path of which I am afraid to explore, nah not afraid, but I don’t care to explore!
Woha what a day to talk about all this’ ooopz what a night’ am too tired to even think’ or even to stop thinking’
Here now in the 24th year of insaness I wish maself more insaness, n to all around me :p
Don’t know how’s the day gonna be! All I hope is to lazy around! Try to sleep’ nice to be in sleepy mode’ Zzzzz’
Years of insaness
Years of crazyness
Years of torture
Years of blah blah
Years of same to continue I guess!
gÑçD’! Well not gonna sleep cos as of now am working late’ and 2maro too at work’ WOW what a day’ am gonna love it’ damn can’t lazy around! So adiós’ I need a drink’ which I don’t have’ though officially I have a CHAMPAGNE bottle in ma custody!… :p oh no am 24..but now I gotta get back to work!
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fOsSiL…the heart has its reasons that reason cannot know!!!
